2009-04-28
Shelora |
to rise to the highest level in relationship to allan and to the vancouver school board tomorrow, especially in the area of boundaries and respect.
being the love that i say i am, being in a state of love, compassion and forgiveness for myself, will allow me to enter the room in a loving, gentle and tender way, and be open to the lesson to be learned, forgiving myself and all those involved, and spreading the pollen of my love, i will create sweetness instead of sourness. |
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2009-04-28
Shelora |
 | i seem to be creating difficulties in relating to any attempt to control or dominate me, and i end up causing myself nothing but grief. i overstep the bounds, and try to get what i want without respecting the other person of being aware of how i land in their experience. |  | whoooeee!!!! this is totally a matter of character. i have a good character structure from my upbringing, but have used the breakdown that happened in my childhood to justify being overbearing in my adult life, trying to protect others from what i went through! i have the opportunity now to develop character as an adult instead of an adolescent, and grow the rest of the way up! |
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2009-04-28
Shelora |
 | the challenge is to listen, take correction, and most of all, be present to the impact that my intensity, impulsiveness, and enthusiasm for personal growth have on other people. |  | this has been happening all my life, and has shaped my character. i realize now that my boundaries were invaded at such a young age, and i tried so hard to please those in authority, that i allowed myself to be bullied out of my own perceptions. the reaction to being dominated and controlled and made wrong is so strong now, that i absolutely react as if it was sixty years ago and i was being spanked for being a bad girl, humiliated, punished, put down, and made wrong by the very system i revered. things change, but not that much. i am still being spanked. this time, though, i am being forgiven and given another chance. and a strong woman is standing up for me! |
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2009-04-29
Shelora |
| |  | i have just endured a massive hearing concerning my ability to teach. my father's father was the first governor of new zealand, and stood for the maori's to have the vote. i feel the legacy of my father and grandfather's high principles watching over me. the greatest bully in the world can be the institution that is blind to its creative, progressive teachers. i need support, and i find comfort in thinking that my father, who is in heaven, is watching all of this, and standing silently by, cheering me on. the card i got after icame home was brandweaver. declare your core self. tell the story of your path to right livelihood. this game has the transformative power i am looking to create in my classroom and in the school system. i trust the divine plan that gave me this card to remind me of who i really am. |
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2009-04-29
Shelora |
| i seem to be playing alone here. so i challenge myself to live up to my heritage of being a force for social change by being authentically myself, and being powerful. |  | i get it. i am on a dangerous road, and percieved as a threat to children because i offer possiblity in a culture of fear. i must watch the road, or i will lose my way. |
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